"So wont you come back to me, I need you by myside, so dont you leave me, for a heartthrob guy.. tonight"
Dedicated to the Love of my life,
5years together.. the only regret I've got is having to let you go.. There will be no greater pain in my life than losing you.. even catching a grenade or taking a bullet through my brains wouldnt hurt as much as what I'm going through..
Dear Loo Shweh Fern.. I secretly wish that you would be reminded of the good times we had together.. the struggles we've been through together.. remember the times we were once strong when I forgive you despite having lied to me for 2 years.. remember how i waited for you through PMR and SPM.. I wish I never had to stop loving you..
5 years together.. I only learned how to love but now i've to learn to forget? It's a tough journey ahead.. this time i have to venture on this journey alone.. Its gona be a hundred times harder than any other challenges we've faced coz i havent got you by my side this time.. I feel so lonely and lost right now.. I cant stop my tears from flowing.. If only i had loved you a little more.. If only I was a little stronger.. If only i was superman..
Life is tough.. and just as my friend always say to me "just suck it up".. i guess I've gotta somehow find the strength in me to carry on.. resists all thoughts of wanting to give up in life.. I dont even know why I'm crying so much when it wont change a thing now..
Its a new start for you! Appreciate every moment of it.. make sure you live with no regrets! Make sure you make it worth it! I'll be secretly cheering you on! Study hard and achieve your goals! I'm sure you'll do great and become a great doctor someday! A doctor with a servants heart living each day to serve the people putting the needs of others ahead of yourself because thats who you are!
Honestly I dont know if i'll be strong enough to face you for the next few days, months or years.. Its going to be hard to treat you as a friend when i still love you so much! I'd probably beg you to give me another chance to come back with me every time we chat! So.. I have to make sure Everything i need to say to you is here!
Fern.. Thanks for being the best girlfriend of mine for the past 5 years.. I'm sorry for the times i hurt you and sorry for bringing us to where we are today.. I'll always remember the good times we had together! movies.. arcade.. food hunting.. jogging.. even waiting for you seems like a nice thing to do now.. I'm sorry for breaking so many promises.. I WISH SO BAD That you could be my wife.. thats one promise that i broke which i probably will regret for a long long time.. Remember how we talk about how we wanted our wedding.. whether it was at the beach.. or a simple wedding like at a garden sorta.. Remember those nights where we just talked till you fell asleep on the phone? Those were good times I'll never forget! Thanks for just being my friend.. understanding me.. being there for me.. you were like my life support system.. keeping me alive.. giving me a reason to live! Thanks for having loved me so deeply and loyally these 5 years! I hope you feel the same way about me.. I'm not perfect.. I learn from my mistakes.. just maybe at a slower rate than me making mistakes...
Alright.. It's time to let the bird free! if it comes back.. will definitely hold it tight and never let it go again.. If it flies freely in the sky and never returns.. find joy in seeing it soar through the air.. Till the day my Love for you fades.. I Love you with all my heart! and will be waiting for a miracle to happen..
Take care now, explore the world! but be safe.. God bless!
And you ask whats the meaning of Love? its now your journey to seek your true love.. and when you find it.. never let go of it! Times may get tough.. but true love is hard to find so cherish it if you find it! Wishing you all the best once again! when 5 years has been all about you.. its hard to really end at any point.. but! I'll be a man and suck it up.. we all pay for mistakes we make..
You may lose faith in me, but never lose faith in God!
With All my Love,
Tai Yue Chuen
2 notes:
Hey. Why deactivate your facebook account? Mistakes make us smarter next time. Be strong. =)
hey, you are never alone. i'll be there whenever you need me, WE will be there. be a man and stay strong! there's a lot more things in life waiting for you to explore and experience. maybe it's time for you to focus on something else?? yue chuen, i know you are very emotional, don't try to do anything stupid alright? i'll be really mad at you, and i know God wouldn't want you to do so too. just wipe all your tears, get a good sleep and GET BACK UP! and don't forget, sometimes miracles happen :) we love you.
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